zrisj (zrisj) wrote,

ashes and wine

a mark/eduardo fanmix
(aka that one really depressing post-deposition mix)

o1. seed - the academy is... *
if i could express it in a different dialect or in a delicate way,
i'd capture the phrases inside the cage beneath my chest
and keep it locked for days
i wanted you so desperately to believe me

shaken and faint, it was the hardest thing to swallow,
pretending you don't miss me

o2. i'm not yours - angus and julia stone
jump into your white mobile and run away
you're always leaving me behind
and i can think of a thousand reasons why
i don't believe in you, i don't believe in you and i

i'm not yours anymore

o3. the boy who blocked his own shot - brand new *
if it makes you less sad, i'll move out of this state
you can keep to yourself, i'll keep out of your way
and if it makes you less sad, i'll take your pictures all down
every picture you paint, i will paint myself out
it's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room
when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds

o4. poison and wine - the civil wars
i wish you'd hold me when i turn my back
the less i give the more i get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
i don't have a choice but i'd still choose you

i don't love you but i always will

o5. ashes and wine - a fine frenzy
don't know if our fate's already sealed
this day's spinning circus on a wheel
i'm ill with the thought of your kiss
coffee laced intoxicating on her lips

shut it out
i've got no claim on you now
not allowed to wear your freedom down

o6. somebody that i used to know - gotye
you didn't have to cut me off
make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
and i don't even need your love
but you treat me like a stranger and i feel so rough
and you didn't have to stoop so low
have your friends collect your records and then change your number
i guess that i don't need that though
now you're just somebody that i used to know

o7. red wings - guillemots
but love was not enough to hold my grip
can't you just feel my fingers slip
into those oceans in the sky where people swim
oceans in the sky calling me in
oceans in the sky i tell myself
though i'm not kidding anybody else
they know i'm leaving
they know that i'm leaving this behind

so i'm leaving my best friend
just for the hell of it
just for the sake of it
but how much i loved you

o8. gravity (stripped) - sara barrailes
something always brings me back to you
it never takes too long
no matter what i say or do
i'll still feel you here 'til the moment i'm gone

o9. with or without you - u2
through the storm, we reach the shore
you give it all but i want more
and i'm waiting for you

i can't live with or without you


BONUS. paradox (demo) - the black cards
paradoxes, you take what hurts
and make it so much worse
but if it were to me, you would never leave
you would never leave me be

* the amazing graphic was made by the amazing ILOVEYOUCATO on tumblr! thank you so much.
* two of these songs (seed and the boy who blocked his own shot) are in m4a files. if anybody needs an mp3 version of them, let me know and i'll work on it.
* idk these songs are just extraordinarily sad to me and the reminded me of mark and eduardo.
Tags: fanmix, mark/eduardo
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